lizards on toast :: imagine (personal)

2007-08-16 15:58:42

Written in response to her version.

Imagine you wake up and don’t know who she is
who she has become
who the girl that you love went

Imagine her forgetting herself and all she said she stood for
Everything you loved
Knowing how she really deserved to be treated

Imagine her never telling you how she really felt
Wanting to make her happy; not realizing she’s locked inside
Never letting you see her cry, thinking she has to be strong, alone.

Imagine begging for your life back
hoping for a yes
being stabbed in the heart with a no

Imagine never sleeping
in fear of dreams that can never be
in fear that you’ll wake up, remembering that it’s not all a bad dream

Imagine being told you’re someone you hated
wishing you could take everything back
begging to be years in the past
wishing on stars
hopes and dreams crushed
crying alone at night; hearing the noises that you’ll never hear again.

Imagine always being told everything was fine
trying to get her to talk
always being turned away

Imagine her leaving
house no longer a home
mocking with a silence so empty
the one who promised to be there
two people, now one;
together against the world.

Imagine being told that you’re nothing
that she no longer loves you
you’re not even worth the effort
of one more chance, to try.

Imagine not being able to be forgiven
for any mistake; no matter how small,
stored up inside herself
built up until bursting,
never forgetting

Imagine knowing how things could be different
how you want stuff to change
to show her what love really means
held closer than before, protected from any harm
still being told no; it’s too late.

Imagine the sadness, imagine the hurt, imagine it was someone you knew