happy
2007-10-20 16:05:30 happy
. A lot’s happened in the last couple months; much more so than the other times where I just wouldn’t update for a while. But, if you don’t already know what’s going on, I probably just don’t care about you. Or you’ve been ignoring me, basically.. again leading me to not care about you. Don’t cry, you’ll be fine. Mum, Dad, this means you guys; You can’t help me anymore. What’s done is, well, just that; done. I couldn’t change anything now even if I wanted to anymore.
Some things just aren’t reversible.
. Anyway. I’m actually happy now.. for the first time in.. well, I don’t know how long. I’ve made a lot of personal changes. Finally quit smoking (probably one of the hardest things I’ve done, ever). I’m finally at the point now where I can wake up without either making a drink or two (on the weaker days), or just really wishing I would. Contrary to a popular rumor, that wasn’t an original problem; that started in July. Go figure. (Thanks, Hop and Emily, for taking care of me.. how many times did I crash at your place?) And, I picked up my guitar again; that was an ugly two-year hiatus of not really playing at all. I really missed it. I guess the last couple of months should have really told me something was wrong. Stupid sub-concious.
. I now have the entire (finished) basement of a townhouse I rent with a couple guys from work. It’s basically a small frat house. Almost all my recent pictures were taken there. :] Now most of my free time’s spent playing guitar, writing, or just listening to music. I’ve been hanging out with Cat a lot.. listening to the Beatles or almost anything indie for around six hours or so. Stevo, we’d have a lot more in common now. I’ve gotten to spend a lot more time with Rachel, too. We went up to the Geiger’s cabin this last weekend. We got to play in a quarry for a couple hours. It was so awesome.
. Every once in a while, I’ll spend a couple hours trying to go through the stuff that was left behind. That usually doesn’t last very long before I’ll get out of the house. I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. Photographs are still a little difficult; I’d give anything to get Caleb and Alexis back, even though I know I can’t pretend anything’s perfect again.
. I found this awesome music store on the recommendation of one of the guys from Record and Tape.. it’s called Joe’s Record Paradise, and has.. oh, I guess about two hundred thousand records. On vinyl. Anything you can think of, in any condition. It’s so incredibly awesome.
. I guess.. Well, I don’t know. I feel like almost a new person. And, I really am actually happy. I blame Cat, mostly. Stupid friends, being awesome. ;]
out.